a few years later...

WOW! How long has it been?!?!

Well just to make it a short and sweet "long awaited update" ... I'm alive.
after all I've been through, I'm still breathing.

Soon, I'll be back in Japan. Iraq hasn't been too bad. I've seen my fair share of heartache and craziness, and it's time to head back. Don't be fooled, I didn't make it without the support of everyone.

When I get back, Prashaun will be waiting there for me. Not only him, my wonderful boyfriend, but my mom will be there also. I couldn't ask for a better "Japan homecomming".

Missy... soon, he'll be home.

I hope everyone is doing well =]

LiViNg

Congrats Jamie & Matt!
Brandee, this entry is espically for you!
Sorry I haven't been updating lately .. I've been super tired ALL the time. But no worries, I'm still living

JPAN is still JPAN, I can't wait to go home on leave, it's ridiculous. Work is still work. I love the people I work with, espically hanging out NOT at work. I miss the states so much.
Me and Melissa went to the BX today just to hang out .. and eat. We got makeover thanks to Kerry, and I LOVE IT! Now I'm even more supermodel material than b 4!
Amir (MISHOE) is doing well. He might come out here in September, if everything goes right. That would make me being here alot easier, but just for a week. We're both really excited about the baby. I'm pretty sure that all this waiting makes 9 month come alot sooner than I thought. BUT NO WORRIES! I'm deffinetly ready!

I hope everyone is doing well!

"Love is the closest thing we have to magic."
--from the movie "Aquamarine"

Currently Listening Scarecrow By Garth Brooks see related

I don't know what you want from me. I've seemed to have given you my EVERYTHING, and yet it seems not enough. SOMETIMES I wish I'd never started having these feelings, then, AND ONLY THEN, would life be easier. Nomatter what I can't lie to myself and say "I don't care" because I do. Sometimes someone walks into our life, and immedetly we KNOW, they're truly something different. YOU will ALWAYS be my something different. Nomatter how far you are from me, you "love" me and care about me more than anyone you ever have felt feelings for, and THAT makes me NOT let go ..

I'm glad I got that off my chest ..

working 12 hrs a day gives me ALOT of time to think ..
Just some quotes and a poem that I wrote when I was younger ..
Maybe all this thinking will result in something spectacular .. just maybe

.!. The Things Ive Come to Miss .!.

The things Ive come to miss are the things Id never hate.

The sweet things you use to say are the things that come to late.

How can things change so fast, youve seem to leave my heart behind.

The feelings I have come to loose are the feelings I hope you find.

In the beginning things were great, yet suddenly things just went downhill.

I dont want you to promise youll try; I want you to promise you will.

I hate the way youre breaking my heart, and when my emotions make me cry.

I dont know why I have these feelings, I wish everything would pass me by.

The image that I use to see, the soft touch of your lips.

Love, love unconditionally, yes you may get hurt, but there will be those people,who by loving unconditionally, will love you and do everything in their power to see you happy

Life is like a boomerang; what you give, you get back

Brandee, thanks for the card!!

See I told you Taresa I'd post a blog! I beat you to it!

I guess it's about time, my teachers always told me that I was a slacker.

Japan is slowly growing on me. I've met alot of amazing people, and continue to do, as I become more social and less scared. I'm seeing more stuff .. everyone back home would be shocked at how shy I've been here. Trust me, I'm shocked myself. I'm slowly growing my own Japan family. Hopefully I'll be comming home in December, but I doubt it. Only for the obvious reasons, but who knows, maybe luck will be on my side. I love where I work. I've been winning awards, and now I'm VP of the Dorm Council. Waking up @ 0345 sucks, but other that I have fun. I've almost been here for 2 whole months, it's crazy. Just 1 year 10 months to go, til the Air Force decideds to send me somewhere else. Yup .. gotta love the Air Force! I do miss NC, still. I can't be there when Christine needs a shoulder to cry on, or to see Heather's son when he smiles. I espically miss seeing the face of a familiar LCpl .. nomatter how much we'd fight, he was always there, and he ALWAYS will be there. yeah .. I love him. Even though my Ford beats his Chevy!

Well I gotta go to bed .. yeah .. i love ya'll!!

Currently listening: Nimrod By Green Day Release date: By 14 October, 1997